Archive for April 28, 2008

sweet idealism

oh lordy, talking about my future with oppa is a bit daunting. i don’t know how to feel about this. scared? happy? excited? i’m just in a large pool of uncertainty, walking upon eggshells, making it through day to day. i really want to have something more with him. something more than an average high school couple. although we may not be a couple.. i don’t know. just talking about our summer plans together is scary. i  like him. but i’m not sure why. i just love to question myself, become skeptical about things, worry, and prepare for the worst. sweet pessimism.

i like floating on cloud nine. i don’t ever want to have to come back down ever again.
古波蔵 says: (10:34:49 PM)

you should of went public school

古波蔵 says: (10:34:51 PM)

with me =]

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:34:55 PM)

lol

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:35:01 PM)

too late you’re leaving

古波蔵 says: (10:35:37 PM)

=[ i know

古波蔵 says: (10:35:44 PM)

its okay ill be driving soon

古波蔵 says: (10:35:54 PM)

so ill just go to your house when i miss you =]

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:36:06 PM)

does that mean everyday? (: hahah

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:36:10 PM)

jkjk gas is expensive

古波蔵 says: (10:36:55 PM)

ahah =] if you want

古波蔵 says: (10:37:02 PM)

if oyu have the time next year

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:37:10 PM)

i will 

古波蔵 says: (10:37:13 PM)

im going to cerritos college and your like 10 minutes away =]

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:37:20 PM)

i might take japanese at cerritos college at night tho

古波蔵 says: (10:37:28 PM)

i have night classes too

–cut–
`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:40:27 PM)

you’re taking summer classes?

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:40:55 PM)

everyday or a couple of times a week?

古波蔵 says: (10:41:05 PM)

everyday

古波蔵 says: (10:41:13 PM)

except for friday saturday sunday

古波蔵 says: (10:41:24 PM)

from 6-3 and 4-7

古波蔵 says: (10:41:26 PM)

=[

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:41:54 PM)

wow

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:42:03 PM)

lol i'll visit you in between

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:42:08 PM)

or after

古波蔵 says: (10:42:41 PM)

haha how bout both =]

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:42:45 PM)

ahahhaa

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:43:03 PM)

iono i think i might work depending

`pauulaaaaaaaaaa says: (10:43:12 PM)

on stuff

古波蔵 says: (10:43:22 PM)

aww

古波蔵 says: (10:43:31 PM)

well i visit you then =] if you work  

 he’s a sweet idealist. i need someone to combat my realism. sometimes i need to leave earth for a bit and see what it’s like over my wall